Mercy me...

Wounded feet I’ll come to you

Stained hands and weaken

Only to be washed and strengthen by you

Empty stare

Teary eyes

Only to be filled and wiped by you

Broken heart and bloodless

longing to be fixed

Clouded soul and defeated

waiting for a rescue

Fading hope

Falling down

waiting to be saved by you

Please don’t let me fall

Instead bring me back to you

hold me close

Tie me up

Chain me near

just don’t let me go…

coz I’m for you.

My Savior’s Love

(January 2011)

 I’ll shed an overflowing blood for you,

even burn my feet just to catch you

I’ll hold my breath to swim unto you

Though I know you’ll just let go

Though you’re a thousand miles away,

and though you’re pushing me away

I’ll still come looking for you,

hug you,

hide you,

and never let go of you…

It sets my heart aflame

when I hear you calling my name…

Though I know you’re vain

but pure and unchanging is my love I keep for you

It’ll break my heart to see you go

but I’ll be here waiting for you

wide and open my arms to embrace you

dying heart and broken

(September 2010)

dying heart and broken

I am but shadow on a wall

I moan for no one can hear my call

In the beaming light I fear

for a gentle touch of it

can cause my skin to disappear

Times went by

Seasons have changed

But here I am awake and is still

As the twilight fills and the night falls

Still, the sound of silence is the lullaby

that keeps my eyes from closing

Upon the edge I’m standing

only to find out the truth, as it flicker on their faces,

pure enough for me to see

that even my shadow and blood

will turn against me

well, that is reality

Into the wave of crowd

I’m passing through

Saw the vicious eyes

looking for their next victim

Sounds of rage and violence

pierced through my ears

I found myself screaming

but nobody would tend to listen

I’m looking for something

I couldn’t even explain

I have nothing but this faith

I’m believing in

and this never ending string

The string of the wicked and death…

Through a looking glass

I see my face

there were ashes

divinely starts fading

and this room filled with beam

now starts drowning

This day may be over

and every breath I breathe I’ll save

bury myself to sleep

for tomorrow’s chances

This gushing blood I never felt

For this pain I earned is even worst

It’s too late for me to see

that’s something’s missing

Truth is but I’m all dead

for my heart is broken… 

Pain

(May 2010)

Pain

here it goes again

a sudden gush of fright,

no matter how hard I cry,

no matter how fast I run & hide—

from the memories I built inside,

no matter how many hours I sleep

even in my dreams it’s there…

the fear.

The fear that changed my life,

the fear that woke me up

to see the dark without the light.

I could feel it under my skin

running through my veins

until it reach the end of my hairs…

No matter how I laughed it out,

no matter how many times I smiled,

no matter how hard I hugged the rocks,

no matter how strong I threw the stones,

it’s still there.

Now it’s taking over me.

I don’t know how it started

I don’t know if this will ever end.

It may sounds ambiguous,

but I just can’t explain it, well.

Years have passed

I thought I would be alright

but now it’s back

& I don’t how to fight.

I have waited long—

long enough to earn an ounce of guts.

Yes, I prayed,

I prayed even hard that I even doubt,

that there’s something wrong with me,

there is wrong with me.

Oh now I see, it’s me.

suffering & violence

(July 2010)

suffering & violence

I sleep to the sound of violence

I wake to the sound of noise

eyes-shut, ears-pierced gun shot

divinely, hope vanished, dream shattered

fear devour the witness juvenile, mouth shut dumb

evidence concealed, bloody hands run fast hide

The world seems cruel, cruel to the eyes of the feeble

Innocents were used, used to the work of evil

evil is in the eyes of the innocents

cheating, killing, it’s their way of living

thirst of hope swelled on their faces

love, joy, peace, is now even forgotten

wrath shaped the hearts

hearts of these new faces

faces of this known new generation…

well, I know nothing about what this written…

sound of grief, sound of pain now reigning…

when my heart cries...

(2007)
when my heart cries...

I rather shut the fuck off

than to smile

run away and hide

than to say what I felt inside

I rather save my words

and let tears running

Through my face

Than to speak up

But no one minds

I rather stay wet

Under the rain

Than to share umbrella

With fake friends

I rather be alone

Than to spend my

Time with unknown

and I rather be here

Than to wait for someone

Who’s in there and

Doesn’t care

I hate waiting

But somehow I’m

Longing that someone

Would be here

So I can share the burden

That I’m embracing

‘coz I’m tired and sick

I’m always rejected

That’s the reason why

I chose to sit rather

Than to stand up straight…

*i'm sorry about the "F" word